Thoughts on SPN
Sep. 29th, 2009 01:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
x_erikah_xFirstly, I found a whumpy Dean LJ comm: ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
sickdean. This makes me happy. Are there any more comms for hurt/comfort Dean fics? I really want to know.
Secondly, I'm fully caught up with the events on Supernatural up to the last aired episode of season 5 and I'm anxiously waiting for the next one that for me will be available on Friday. ^_^
Now, some thoughts on a few things. Beware of season 5 spoilers, but only for aired episodes. I'm a spoilerphobe and don't want to know any of the speculation about unaired eps.
I sometimes miss the lightness of the first two seasons. Poor, poor boys. *huggles them* I love how the SPN TPTB likes to break them. I loved the angst in season 3 with the Dean is going to hell thing, and even more in season 4 for having him back. I liked how they portrayed the evolution and change in the Sam and Dean relationship throughout the seasons and to see how they are facing the consequences about that and having them dealing and trying to fix things.
They really needed some time away from each other to face what happened and to see who they are when the other is not around. I liked how they showed the parallel on their separated lives. To see their reaction on the events is so predictable. Sam hides and Dean goes on hunt after hunt. At least Dean knows where his life lies and what he is supposed to do. Sam doesn't. He tries to run away and fools himself into a poor excuse of a normal life, knowing deep down that the things he has done and his past will always catch up. He knows this deep down, but that doesn't stop him from running and pretending he can be normal. Silly boy. He makes me angry and sad at the same time. Sad because I feel for what he's going through now and angry for him not seeing what the problem is. Men.
The problems is not that he started the Apocalypse. Of course that is bad (duh), but it was an accident. An unavoidable accident at that point. The problem is all the things he did that led to that moment. He lied, he kept things away, he didn't listen to anyone that kept saying that he shouldn't go down that path, he chose a demon over his brother, he went all Anakin Skywalker (didn't he watch the movie, lol?). The Apocalypse was just the biggest "I told you so" ever and now the poor boy goes all emo seeing what a damn fool he was. To figure out he is Lucifer's vessel was just the icing with cherry on top. I sure hope he gets it all straightened in his head soon. The hunter with the blood thing was a very good thing to happen to him. *huggles him*
Now, for Dean, things aren't that much better. He saw his little brother go down the path he shouldn't have gone after trying so much to protect him. He went to Hell and back only to see Sam becoming a junky. That can't be an easy thing to watch happening to your little brother. He feels he has failed Sam, but he also feels that Sam has failed him. Seeing them falling apart was heartbreaking for me. As an older sis I can relate with Dean's struggle with the situation. We want to protect and keep them safe and we tell the things they are not supposed to do. When they rebel and break their faces against the wall, we feel bad for ourselves for failing and feel bad for them having to get hurt in order to learn when it would have been so much easier to simply listen. Then we think of all the things we should have done different, wondering if we tried hard enough, feeling their pain in addition to our own. I understand Dean is tired of this and that he needs some time off just as much as Sam needs. After all, this isn't just about teenage pregnancy, going out with a less than perfect human being or smoking cigarette after cigarette (my issues with my younger bro and sis). This was about the freaking Apocalypse, hanging out with a demon and getting high on evil!blood. So, it's just a bit more tragic than my family situations.
I love that the TPTB chose to go down this route.
I also loved Cas' role in the last episode, hanging out with Dean and being the kind of person that Dean can rely on implicitly. It broke me to a million pieces when Dean is all smiley and happy, laughing so hard then saying that he hadn't laughed so hard in years. And then when he brought it up again at the end of the episode, repeating that he hadn't had so much fun in so long and that Cas isn't even a fun guy to hang out with, lol. I really liked their connection and how they mirror each other. They both understand each other because they are going through the same thing. It was about time we introduced a character that truly understands Dean, because not even Sam does. Not at this level anyway. I just wanted to squish Cas and Dean all the way through the episode, so I imagine the things the slashers must be saying (or writing) about it. That was A LOT of subtext there. *G* Dean even talked about Angel virginity. Cas was so adorable. Dean was so adorable. It was thunky heaven and a nice break in the angstness and emo-ing all around, but still able to be angsty and emo at the same time when we think about that this was Sam and Dean in earlier seasons.
sickdean. This makes me happy. Are there any more comms for hurt/comfort Dean fics? I really want to know.Secondly, I'm fully caught up with the events on Supernatural up to the last aired episode of season 5 and I'm anxiously waiting for the next one that for me will be available on Friday. ^_^
Now, some thoughts on a few things. Beware of season 5 spoilers, but only for aired episodes. I'm a spoilerphobe and don't want to know any of the speculation about unaired eps.
I sometimes miss the lightness of the first two seasons. Poor, poor boys. *huggles them* I love how the SPN TPTB likes to break them. I loved the angst in season 3 with the Dean is going to hell thing, and even more in season 4 for having him back. I liked how they portrayed the evolution and change in the Sam and Dean relationship throughout the seasons and to see how they are facing the consequences about that and having them dealing and trying to fix things.
They really needed some time away from each other to face what happened and to see who they are when the other is not around. I liked how they showed the parallel on their separated lives. To see their reaction on the events is so predictable. Sam hides and Dean goes on hunt after hunt. At least Dean knows where his life lies and what he is supposed to do. Sam doesn't. He tries to run away and fools himself into a poor excuse of a normal life, knowing deep down that the things he has done and his past will always catch up. He knows this deep down, but that doesn't stop him from running and pretending he can be normal. Silly boy. He makes me angry and sad at the same time. Sad because I feel for what he's going through now and angry for him not seeing what the problem is. Men.
The problems is not that he started the Apocalypse. Of course that is bad (duh), but it was an accident. An unavoidable accident at that point. The problem is all the things he did that led to that moment. He lied, he kept things away, he didn't listen to anyone that kept saying that he shouldn't go down that path, he chose a demon over his brother, he went all Anakin Skywalker (didn't he watch the movie, lol?). The Apocalypse was just the biggest "I told you so" ever and now the poor boy goes all emo seeing what a damn fool he was. To figure out he is Lucifer's vessel was just the icing with cherry on top. I sure hope he gets it all straightened in his head soon. The hunter with the blood thing was a very good thing to happen to him. *huggles him*
Now, for Dean, things aren't that much better. He saw his little brother go down the path he shouldn't have gone after trying so much to protect him. He went to Hell and back only to see Sam becoming a junky. That can't be an easy thing to watch happening to your little brother. He feels he has failed Sam, but he also feels that Sam has failed him. Seeing them falling apart was heartbreaking for me. As an older sis I can relate with Dean's struggle with the situation. We want to protect and keep them safe and we tell the things they are not supposed to do. When they rebel and break their faces against the wall, we feel bad for ourselves for failing and feel bad for them having to get hurt in order to learn when it would have been so much easier to simply listen. Then we think of all the things we should have done different, wondering if we tried hard enough, feeling their pain in addition to our own. I understand Dean is tired of this and that he needs some time off just as much as Sam needs. After all, this isn't just about teenage pregnancy, going out with a less than perfect human being or smoking cigarette after cigarette (my issues with my younger bro and sis). This was about the freaking Apocalypse, hanging out with a demon and getting high on evil!blood. So, it's just a bit more tragic than my family situations.
I love that the TPTB chose to go down this route.
I also loved Cas' role in the last episode, hanging out with Dean and being the kind of person that Dean can rely on implicitly. It broke me to a million pieces when Dean is all smiley and happy, laughing so hard then saying that he hadn't laughed so hard in years. And then when he brought it up again at the end of the episode, repeating that he hadn't had so much fun in so long and that Cas isn't even a fun guy to hang out with, lol. I really liked their connection and how they mirror each other. They both understand each other because they are going through the same thing. It was about time we introduced a character that truly understands Dean, because not even Sam does. Not at this level anyway. I just wanted to squish Cas and Dean all the way through the episode, so I imagine the things the slashers must be saying (or writing) about it. That was A LOT of subtext there. *G* Dean even talked about Angel virginity. Cas was so adorable. Dean was so adorable. It was thunky heaven and a nice break in the angstness and emo-ing all around, but still able to be angsty and emo at the same time when we think about that this was Sam and Dean in earlier seasons.
